What in the world happened? First, da ge decided to call him to clarify matters; next thing I knew he was already back, and promised to call to meet up and settle everything amicably or at least have an opportunity to voice out and get closure if it had to be. Everything happened so quickly last week when I dropped him a text msg and got a call back to tell me the proceedings are at the lawyers. It's virtually dead now. I'm virtually dead. The best part? I do not hate him; I am not angry; very upset nonetheless, but I still love him to bits. Is this true, real love a wife has for her husband? I want forgiveness from him, and I have forgiven him, I am still waiting for restoration of our marriage and a reconciliation, but am I asking for too much? Is it really over? This does feel a little like jail, like hell, not that I am aware how that feels, but I know this isn't what is meant for me to go through.
This is surreal, very painful.
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