Second day of the lunar new year; still nothing. Should I then start calling myself and estranged wife?Or perhaps not a wife at all. Nobody wants to ask me about anything when they do come to my place for visitation because it's a really sensitive topic. My folks are still pretty much affected and disappointed with the way things were/are handled. Basically there isn't any responsibility to inform my parents of any decisions made, making it a really ugly situation, and it isn't my intention to tell my folks either because it was never my decision. I wasn't consulted... I was told.
Guess it would be way better if I was told off in the face. It would hurt, but at least there would be closure. Now it's inconclusive and I know as much about the situation as anyone randomly walking on the streets.
Left him a message yesterday to wish him a Happy Lunar New Year. No reply. Is it time to realise he's not a responsible nor reliable person? Or to stay in denial and wait? I'm exhausted, no idea what to say anymore. Must it be like this? Must one wait till giving up is the only option? It really has become very exhausting and tiring; but isn't this what 2 people have to go through till they get comfortable? I know I will live to regret not being given an opportunity to try my very best and live a life with him properly. But this regret is sowed by him. And he will reap what he sows.... Because I love him, I do not wish for anything bad to happen to him. I want the best for him and because he is being loved still, he should be living life happily. And that is what life owes me too... to live happily.
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